The little tricks of the Ego...

Namaste!

After recently realising how busy I have been lately, I also realised I have also been far too busy for my spiritual development, which used to be of a high priority for me. I started wondering why? Yes my work does keep me busy, as does my toddler son, husband and housework. But why is it that every time I sit and try to relax that my mind starts thinking through my "to do list" of life? I wondered why I have not been able to sit and rest, and just be in silence and meditate like I used to. And this has been happening for a few months now. There has always been time to spare for silence and spiritual connection previously. That got me thinking....

And the answer came. It isnt because I have less time or more to do. The source of my lack of time for my spirituality has been my Ego. Yes that little dark animal inside me that every now and then has a scratch and claw, inducing me into a moments of negativity. This doesn't happen often, but it still does as I am only human :)

But this time its different. This time my Ego is trying a different strategy, probably as it realises its up against a losing battle. All this energy shifting lately is allowing me to let go of more and more layers of Ego and negative thoughts etc. And with all the shifts and releasing, the Ego tries harder and harder to hang on and stay put. Well this time, its picked on my weakness, and that is my love and joy of my job/work. I have a spiritual based business and rely heavily on my intuition and connection to divinity to provide people with healing jewellery.

This is how my little animal of an Ego has been working: By keeping my mind busy and constantly thinking and doing, it has kept me from my spiritual development. It has kept me from my once daily ritual of connecting with the Divine, my meditation, the books I am writing, my healing work, and most importantly engaging with my family. My Ego is so afraid of its losing battle, the only thing left in my life that it could attack was my beloved work, my spiritual work. By checking emails, Facbook, invoicing, ordering, making, thinking, balancing the books, updating services, internet browsing etc although all necessary, has taken over my life. There is certainly no need for me to fill my life with all that. And that is all just Ego.

So there you go, my little tricks of the Ego. But now it has been realised, it will be just another layer I need to shed and release as I reach my true and authentic self, my spirit. The Ego is certainly a cunning little creature, but not anymore.... until it finds another weakness to prey on atleast.

Love, light and blessings to you all )0(