My very first Awakening to Spirit (part 1)...

Namaste!

 

I can remember it like it was yesterday. We can probably all remember the very first time we felt the presence of Spirit/God in our lives. For me it was when I was 18 years old and had only just started University. I had always been a spiritual child. I had seen and heard many things that would probably scare the heck out of most people. But I have always been "open" to seeing, hearing and sensing the spirit world. Despite this, I had never really sensed or felt or could even grasp the idea of having a connection with Great Spirit. At that time I was still very disconnected and struggling through life. I just assumed that I was a freak of nature. I wish my first awakening was a happier story, but this was how it happened for me:

** Please if you are frightened easily, or do not wish to hear or read about the dark side of spirituality, then you may not want to read any further **

It all began a few months after moving into the University housing complex. I became friendly with the girl who lived next door to me, who also had an interest in all things psychic and spiritual. We were quite good friends and both dabbled with Tarot Cards and the like, but neither of us had much experience or knowledge about anything of that nature.

One day my friend asked me if I was interested in using a Ouija Board. I was very hesitant at first as I had heard so many horror stories about people using one and things going wrong. Images of The Exorcist movie ran through my head and fears of what may come of it all. I was scared to say the least but looking back on it now, it was a pivital point in my spiritual journey. I eventually caved in and agreed to it.

The next night my friend drew up the Ouija Board on a piece of paper. She had me convinced that she knew what she was doing. By drawing it up on paper she thought that she could burn it at the end and be rid of any energies that may come through. We sat in our hallway with candles and our fingers on the shot glass. There were no forms of psychic protection used, just a few words to invite in a spirit of any kind.

Well after quite a while of trying, nothing happened. We had a good laugh at it all, packed everything up, burnt the paper and went to bed. A few uneventful days had passed before some very strange things began to happen. My friend complained of having terrible nighmares about a tall and melevolent spirit that visited her room every night. I would often wake at night to her screaming and shouting at the spirit to leave her alone. It then started following her during the daytime, and her boyfriend commented that he had started seeing it too. Some kind of entity was certainly attached to her. I on the other hand was experiencing something very different.

I  began hearing a voice and seeing some kind of demonic figure in my minds eye. The voice was male and dark, and the face I kept seeing was dark red and very twisted. It started telling me things that would eventually take away my self confidence and joy. It started with things like "no one likes you" and "you dont have any friends or anyone that cares about you" and "you are a hopeless waste of space". This went on for months and months, and I honestly had no idea what was going on. I knew that if I told someone they would think I was going crazy. So I kept it to myself. Soon the voice got darker and started telling me that "my life was not worth living", and "that I would be better off dead". The voice persisted and its presence overwhelmed me. I soon believed what it was telling me. I started thinking about suicide and fell into a deep and dark depression.

Ok, this story is quite long. So the rest will have to wait for another time....