Namaste!
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I was in a very dark and scary place. I felt alone and distant from everyone, and spent most of my time locked away in my room. I even had a boyfriend at the time who didnt seem to notice too much that I was changing.
Then one day after listening to the dark ramblings of this demonic presence, I finally put two and two together. I realised what had happened with the Ouija Board, myself and my friend. Two entities had obviously came through the portal that we opened and although they didnt make themselves known straight away, they had attached himself to the both of us. I had never believed in dark entities before, but I certainly did now. Even though I was spiritual back then, my awareness, self confidence and vibrations were a lot lower at that time. I was a prime target for any type of negative energies.
I explained to my friend what I thought had happened and she agreed. We worked on smudging her room and made a protection amulate for the doorway of our housing unit. Her entity slowly pulled away from our home, but mine had remained clung to me.
Then one night after laying in bed and not being able to sleep, the entity came to me again. I closed my eyes even tighter thinking that this would block it from my mind, but it didnt. Its face appeared in my minds eye and told me that I would never be rid of it. With tears in my eyes I flung off the covers and walked out to the kitchen. It was pitch black and after midnight. I walked over to the kitchen drawer and pulled out the biggest knife I could find.
I took the knife and walked over to the kitchen window. I held the cold blade to my wrist and cried out loud. I was finally sick of the constant taunting and the dark suggestions the entity was making. He had pushed me to my breaking point, my strength to fight back was finally over. The entity waited quietly as it probably thought I was about to end my life. I had isolated myself from everyone and everything, just what it had wanted.
But instead I said out loud "if there is any reason why I should live, make it known to me NOW". I waited for a response of some kind but nothing happened, so I repeated it two more times. I closed my eyes and listened intently, I actually thought that if there really was a God that he/she was about to speak to me. And it did. After closing my eyes a huge white light appeared to me (in my minds eye). The light was so very bright that I couldn't believe what I was seeing. Then something else happened, I heard a voice, and it was not the entity. This time it was a female's voice and it said "hello my dear, you are finally able to listen. We are here to help you". I found myself surrounded by bright white angel like beings, it was honestly one of the most beautiful things I've ever seen. The beings moved in closer and as I looked to my left I could see that they were detaching the entity from me. They took it to the centre of the room and the beings rose up into the air and vanished.
I opened my eyes and the room was still dark. But something was different, the heaviness was gone. I now felt lighter and brighter and I could feel the old me inside again. I was still stunned by what had happened but realised that the white beings must have been my Spirit Guides and Angels. I had felt the oneness of creation that was Great Spirit/God. From that moment onwards my life was going to be different. My perceptions of everything had changed and I no longer felt the feeling of separation. I had started my conscious spiritual journey.
That was my story of the very first time I felt the presence of Great Spirit. It was a time in my life that I really dont think or talk about much, but looking back on it now, it really was a pivital point to my spiritual development.
Love, light and spirit to you all...
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